There are probably two days every week where I actually work on my physical appearance. I mean, work on it as much as any stay at home mom of 5 whose big outing of the day is probably a trip to Trader Joe's might.
The other day I was in front of the mirror drawing my winged eyeliner when Lily appeared behind me.
"Mom, why do you put on makeup when you don't have a job and stay in the house all day?"
I looked my girl right in the eye.
"Because Mommy hasn't given up yet, sweetheart".
"Oh."
What I should have explained to Lil is that I understand how confusing it is to be a ten year old girl. We tell them to be assertive, but not bossy. Look pretty, but don't dress slutty. Be a feminist, but don't make people uncomfortable. And don't forget, you can raise a family, but never compromise when it comes to reaching your career goals. Being a tween is hard enough to navigate without all these mixed messages.
I am a child of the 80s and 90s, and very much a feminist, thankyouverymuch. I was raised by progressive boomer parents, inundated with tons of media that assured me I was special and smart, and was encouraged to "reach for the stars". I was told girls could grow up to be anything they wanted, even the President of the United States! It all sounded great to my little ears, and even though I never quite had a concrete picture of the Great Thing I was going to grow up and be (that extended beyond prancing around NYC with great hair and a fabulous wardrobe) I never considered at age 6, or 12, or 20 that I'd be doing what I am doing now- staying home and raising a family in and oh so traditional way.
But like the edgy Millennial that I am, I decided to buck the trend and be totally radical and get married and have a baby at the tender age of 23. You know, during the time when all my friends were staring into the depressing existential void of post college underemployment, staggering student debt, and unfulfilled expectations from life in general. Suckers, I thought, I have a great plan! I skipped over the things everyone else did in their 20s. I made friends with other moms a decade older than I was. I went to playgroups and music class and toddler time. I had fun running the stay at home mom circuit and had several more babies, while Joe worked his ass off finishing school and starting his business, reaching towards the bright and shiny WeHa middle class suburban life that we considered our end game. We were a couple of posers; totally broke until around kid #4, but it was fun to walk the walk ten years ahead of everyone else our age.
Lucky for us, it all worked out. Thirteen years later, we have a house, 2 cars, 5 kids, nice vacations- a totally comfortable and Instagrammable life- traditional gender roles or not. I was a stay at home mom, but I was young and liberal and cool; definitely not of the June Cleaver ilk (despite my love of being barefoot, and tendency to become pregnant every couple of years).
Two years ago, I had my last beautiful baby. Joe and I were on the fence about #5; our family was already perfect and "balanced". I had decided to go pursue my MSW in an extremely non-committal and part time way. Our youngest was turning 3 and about to start school. We could have moved forward with whatever would have been next for our family but instead decided to dive right back in at square one. I "bought myself another five years", as one of my playgroup mom friends once said. Quinn is our last baby, and the most perfect and beautiful cherry on top of our family.
But after having that fifth baby, there was no question. I was done. Chapter closed.
So now here I sit, 3 years shy of 40, the anxiety and feeling of existential dread starting to creep in once more. Quinny will be in school before long. I will no longer be needed by someone 100% of the time. Time to revisit the old familiar question I've been putting off for a couple decades. What am I going to do with my life?
Somehow I missed the mom memo about how to successfully return to the workforce after a 13 year employment gap. I know I am not alone- there are so many of us suburban moms searching for the unicorn part time job between 9-2 on weekdays, with summers off, that pays well and utilizes all of the skills we honed in our many years of post secondary education. A job that leaves us fulfilled and happy, while also allowing for enough time off to be with our kids (who apparently don't stop needing us after the first day of kindergarten like we expected they would).
Haha!
But seriously guys, why did it take me 36 years to realize that doesn't exist? Nobody has a life like that without compromising anything. You make choices.
The thing is, while us 90s kids were playing with our astronaut Barbies, planted in front of big purple dinosaurs singing about how "special"we are, nobody told us that it is actually physically quite impossible for any person of any gender to "have it all", unlimited potential or not.
There is no winning at life, even if we pretend we did on Instagram. We're all just surviving- paying the bills, trying to be decent people, figuring out what it means to be happy. If having a job with a paycheck is part of that equation- great. If your dream is to stay home and raise your family- rock on. If you can manage to feel fulfilled by any combination of those things, you made it! If you have good days and bad days and wonder constantly what life would be like if you made different decisions, congratulations you are human. If you are lucky enough to be able to choose in the first place, take a step back and acknowledge how tremendously privileged you are.
I want my children to know that the decision to stay home and raise them was intentional, even though I made it when I was very young. I want them to know our family is extremely fortunate to be able to afford my choice, and that it has nothing to do with my gender (though I do not deny its more socially acceptable to be a female stay at home parent). My work has value even though I don't get paid, and I will support my girls (and boys) on whichever path they choose to follow.
Of course I want a career and a life outside of motherhood someday, but I accept that I have NO TIME to pursue one right now. I refuse to throw myself (and my $) half- assed into a new endeavor before i am ready, because it will almost definitely mean failing spectacularly in all arenas of my life. Even though I receive little validation from society for the things I accomplish every day as an extremely non-glamorous stay at home mom, I know that the Power family ship would not run without the abundance of invisible labor, time and energy I put in to keep it afloat every single day. Even on days I don't wear eyeliner.
Thursday, February 20, 2020
I. Am. Joyce.
These days, I simultaneously want to burst into tears because my perfect, beautiful LAST baby is growing up too quickly, and also because taking care of five kids is plain f-ing HARD. I didn't' think it was possible to go through the whole spectrum of emotions every single day while simultaneously being bored out of my mind by the monotony of the newborn routine and seemingly endless housework.
These days, I walk around with spit up matted hair (yesterday i thought i lost an earring- luckily, it was just stuck in one of my dreadlocks) and skin as broken out as a fifteen year old's.
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| Is that leave-in conditioner? Nope. |
These days, I have resorted to wearing those horrible LuLa Roe leggings that look like an acid trip Magic Eye book from the 90s because nothing else fits right now. Seriously, no grown woman should wear this, even if they are a size 2 and HATE Do-si-dos. Definitely not too good for the ol' postpartum self esteem.
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| If your friend asks you to go to one of these parties, JUST SAY NO. |
These days, I find myself not caring at all about any of these things. Especially not about this basket of 400 single socks I have been meaning to match for weeks, but just shove back into the front closet every night. Do people without five kids actually care about socks? I'll never know.
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| every day is crazy sock day! |
Since the Fall, my kids have been really into the Netflix series, Stranger Things. They paint pictures of the Shadow Monster and demogorgons in art class. They made Steve Harrington valentines for their classmates last month (I think their teachers were mostly amused). They ask Alexa to play "Waiting for a Girl Like You" by Foreigner and reenact Barb's disappearance into the Upside Down. It's as hilarious as it is appropriate, and it's one of the many reasons why I love being their mom.
Whenever I play Stranger Things with my kids, I am always Joyce, of course, as she is obviously my homemaking role model. I haven't strung up any Christmas lights in my living room (yet), and I'm pretty sure none of my children are lost in an alternate dimension, but I admit that I am more than a little similar to scatterbrained, unpredictable, lovable Joyce., who gives zero fucks about what people think of her and her homemaking skills.
The truth is, I like having an excuse for giving fewer fucks than usual, so I might just continue to milk this whole "I have a newborn" thing for as long as I can. Getting the kids to school (or anywhere) on time isn't my strong suit anyway, but these days, if we can get there by 9:15 or so
But just when I decide to embrace my archetypal Joyce-ness and go easy on myself for not always having it "together", something like this happens: I was walking my kids in to school late (again) one morning, and as I was attempting to stuff my son's snow pants, boots, and winter crap into his locker I was approached by one of his buddies, who asked me if he could play over after school. Of course I said yes, and offered to reciprocate some time soon. The boy answered, "Yeah, I told my mom I would rather play at your house, but she said you had too many kids, so we should go to mine instead." !!
In situations like this, I feel bad and sort of guilty for being so Joyce-y, but despite my lack of organizational skills and scatterbrained tenancies, I am by no means negligent. No, I wont' hover over your kid with organic snacks and Pinterest-worthy craft ideas on playdates, but I promise I will keep them safe, and they'll have fun.
Sure, my kids don't always wear socks to school or remember their homework, but they are very aware of the love that exists within their loud, messy, crowded home. Our lives right now are chaotic, we are still finding a rhythm as a family of seven and that's okay. Some days I nail it and go to three grocery stores and cook an amazing meal, other days, my kids dig into the 72 count box of granola bars from Costco and call it dinner. Win some, lose some.
Until then, I don't care if I'm the Joyce of the mom crowd. I am not afraid of being a bra-less hot mess mom with yesterdays makeup and unbrushed hair at school drop off. I am not afraid of not having an Instagram- worthy home full of white furniture and no fingerprints. I am not afraid to admit that I have gained weight, have horrible skin and haven't had a haircut since July.
What I am afraid of is having these precious newborn days slip by amid the chaos, breaking up fights, keeping schedules, and driving, driving driving my kids around town. This time is short and I plan to drink it up with my chapped un-lipsticked mouth. Someday I know I will care about things like being on time, and putting on makeup, and wearing appropriate clothes purchased from an actual store rather than a direct marketing stay at home mom pyramid scheme (or Target).
But right now, my life is crazy and loud and nuts, and every night ends with a fight between at least two kids followed by a raucous Hamilton/Taylor Swift dance party. I love it so much my heart might explode, and I am in the center of it all because I. Am. Joyce.
So feel free to send your kids over any time. I will be sure to serve them some Do-si do's in my flamboyant pants.
Tuesday, March 6, 2018
Only Crazy People Have Five Kids
Hi Friends!
More than a year has passed since I have posted in this blog, ever so frazzled about school vacation, annoying kid activities, bento boxes, or whatever else was on my mind in 2017, that I must have forgotten to tell everyone the news!
Our family has grown AGAIN!
Well... first we adopted a cat in April, but that wasn't hard core enough for our family, so we produced another child of the human variety last month. Yup, just when my youngest one traded naps and diapers for preschool and ninja turtles, i voluntarily bought myself another one way ticket back into the land of midnight feedings, those impossible moby wraps, and all-day unintentional boob exposure. Why would any sane, liberal, non-evangelical, educated person do that after almost ELEVEN years of raising young kids? I care about my carbon footprint and I love science, I swear!
Because THIS GUY was worth it-
Not only did I make it to my due date this time, but it was actually a great birth- my favorite, in fact- and as much of a peaceful experience as one could expect from a 5th repeat c-section. It was nice to have "gone out on a high note", as they say. Much, much different from last time.
Of course, there was plenty of obligatory chatter about a double epidural/spinal (in case my insides were so scarred up and mangled that my surgery lasts 5 hours) and the multiple "units on hold" in case of hemorrhage, which I was told I would have many times by those friendly MFM doctors. In the OR, I tried to just relax and listen to the Journey Pandora station and joke around with the 15 year old resident who was seriously considering getting his wife a Chipotle burrito for Valentine's Day. Perhaps that's the Millennial equivalent of flowers?
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But as soon as they popped this guy out and put him right on my chest, my inner monologue changed from "don't bleed to death" to "look at this beautiful perfect baby of mine".
Thomas Quinn Power was born on 12:26 on Valentine's day during the second verse of "Time after Time" by Cyndi Lauper. He was 8 lbs 3 oz, 21 inches, and looks exactly like all the other Power children. He is lazy and sleepy and sweet and perfect in every way. He is our "Quinn", but it also means a lot to me to have given him my dad's name. I know he would have really loved being a grandfather.
My hospital stay was like a relaxing spa vacation (except the infected incision part, of which I will spare you the details- yuck), punctuated by 45 minute visits from my LOUD family (sorry, neighbors) who brought Quinn and I lots of love, and soup and pastries from ABP, because hospital food is definitely not spa-like. This also included a self-imposed Facebook hiatus which ended up lasting a couple of weeks (want to see people freak out? don't post on FB for days after everyone knows you just had a baby). This was my "one last time" and I wanted to enjoy every minute without being on my phone all day.
The best part of being an "experienced" new mom is that for the most part, everyone in the hospital leaves you alone. They refer to you as "the easy patient". There is a certain amount of respect people have for grand multiparious moms- nobody will dare try to tell you how to take care of your baby at this point. The nurses ask YOU when you want to do things like get up and walk around, and we have fun conversations about other things besides childbirth. There is no lactation consultant toiling around when the amount of time you've spent breastfeeding your other babies exceeds half a decade. On day 3 when the baby loses 10% of his birth weight? NBD! He'll gain it back! The residents didn't even bother me too much during their 4:30 am rounds (or maybe I was just too busy sleeping to notice).
Quinn was worth every ache and pain and the week of flu-like symptoms leading up to his birth. He was worth messing up my trip to Spain with his first trimester yuckiness (I ate all the uncured jamon and soft cheese anyway, oh well). He was worth all the nights I fell asleep on the couch or in bed with the girls because I was just too damn exhausted to function past 6pm. He was worth resigning and checking out of everything - school, volunteer work and other useless activities. This turned out to be the best gift I could have given myself, because I can now step back and really evaluate what is worth my time (hint- none of it, really).
I won't lie- It is sad to truly be "done" with my reproductive years. As much as I wanted my imaginary little girl Alice, and as much as right now I feel like I can have 5 more because this birth was beautiful and unexpectedly easy, now is the time to step back and be grateful for my five perfect children who are smart and funny and annoying and listen to Foreigner and Elton John and the 4 Non-Blondes. I am so lucky. I mean, what if the sixth one liked Nickleback...or Coldplay? Why would I risk that?
So far, my non-motherhood related goals include things like wearing a pair of pants with a button, sleeping on my stomach, and not trying to pass off yesterday' s eye makeup for today's, but I'm sure I'll emerge from my 11 year mom cocoon soon enough. The unknown is scary, and so are the 500 emotions associated with being "Done", but honestly, never moving forward and having five more kids is an even scarier thought.
If only crazy people have big families, you can happily count me among the ranks of the (non-evangelical) crazies. I'm in love with the beautiful family Joe and I have created, and I'm excited to start living the highly anticipated cliche called the "next chapter".
Maybe one of these days I'll even stop googling "reverse tubal ligation" ;)
More than a year has passed since I have posted in this blog, ever so frazzled about school vacation, annoying kid activities, bento boxes, or whatever else was on my mind in 2017, that I must have forgotten to tell everyone the news!
Our family has grown AGAIN!
Well... first we adopted a cat in April, but that wasn't hard core enough for our family, so we produced another child of the human variety last month. Yup, just when my youngest one traded naps and diapers for preschool and ninja turtles, i voluntarily bought myself another one way ticket back into the land of midnight feedings, those impossible moby wraps, and all-day unintentional boob exposure. Why would any sane, liberal, non-evangelical, educated person do that after almost ELEVEN years of raising young kids? I care about my carbon footprint and I love science, I swear!
Because THIS GUY was worth it-
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| baby Q! |
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| last pregnancy picture...ever. |
Of course, there was plenty of obligatory chatter about a double epidural/spinal (in case my insides were so scarred up and mangled that my surgery lasts 5 hours) and the multiple "units on hold" in case of hemorrhage, which I was told I would have many times by those friendly MFM doctors. In the OR, I tried to just relax and listen to the Journey Pandora station and joke around with the 15 year old resident who was seriously considering getting his wife a Chipotle burrito for Valentine's Day. Perhaps that's the Millennial equivalent of flowers?
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But as soon as they popped this guy out and put him right on my chest, my inner monologue changed from "don't bleed to death" to "look at this beautiful perfect baby of mine".
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| "skin to skin" in the OR. Oh, the times they are a-changin'. |
Thomas Quinn Power was born on 12:26 on Valentine's day during the second verse of "Time after Time" by Cyndi Lauper. He was 8 lbs 3 oz, 21 inches, and looks exactly like all the other Power children. He is lazy and sleepy and sweet and perfect in every way. He is our "Quinn", but it also means a lot to me to have given him my dad's name. I know he would have really loved being a grandfather.
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| Just like Simba! |
My hospital stay was like a relaxing spa vacation (except the infected incision part, of which I will spare you the details- yuck), punctuated by 45 minute visits from my LOUD family (sorry, neighbors) who brought Quinn and I lots of love, and soup and pastries from ABP, because hospital food is definitely not spa-like. This also included a self-imposed Facebook hiatus which ended up lasting a couple of weeks (want to see people freak out? don't post on FB for days after everyone knows you just had a baby). This was my "one last time" and I wanted to enjoy every minute without being on my phone all day.
The best part of being an "experienced" new mom is that for the most part, everyone in the hospital leaves you alone. They refer to you as "the easy patient". There is a certain amount of respect people have for grand multiparious moms- nobody will dare try to tell you how to take care of your baby at this point. The nurses ask YOU when you want to do things like get up and walk around, and we have fun conversations about other things besides childbirth. There is no lactation consultant toiling around when the amount of time you've spent breastfeeding your other babies exceeds half a decade. On day 3 when the baby loses 10% of his birth weight? NBD! He'll gain it back! The residents didn't even bother me too much during their 4:30 am rounds (or maybe I was just too busy sleeping to notice).
Quinn was worth every ache and pain and the week of flu-like symptoms leading up to his birth. He was worth messing up my trip to Spain with his first trimester yuckiness (I ate all the uncured jamon and soft cheese anyway, oh well). He was worth all the nights I fell asleep on the couch or in bed with the girls because I was just too damn exhausted to function past 6pm. He was worth resigning and checking out of everything - school, volunteer work and other useless activities. This turned out to be the best gift I could have given myself, because I can now step back and really evaluate what is worth my time (hint- none of it, really).
I won't lie- It is sad to truly be "done" with my reproductive years. As much as I wanted my imaginary little girl Alice, and as much as right now I feel like I can have 5 more because this birth was beautiful and unexpectedly easy, now is the time to step back and be grateful for my five perfect children who are smart and funny and annoying and listen to Foreigner and Elton John and the 4 Non-Blondes. I am so lucky. I mean, what if the sixth one liked Nickleback...or Coldplay? Why would I risk that?
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| The Power 5 |
So far, my non-motherhood related goals include things like wearing a pair of pants with a button, sleeping on my stomach, and not trying to pass off yesterday' s eye makeup for today's, but I'm sure I'll emerge from my 11 year mom cocoon soon enough. The unknown is scary, and so are the 500 emotions associated with being "Done", but honestly, never moving forward and having five more kids is an even scarier thought.
If only crazy people have big families, you can happily count me among the ranks of the (non-evangelical) crazies. I'm in love with the beautiful family Joe and I have created, and I'm excited to start living the highly anticipated cliche called the "next chapter".
Maybe one of these days I'll even stop googling "reverse tubal ligation" ;)
Monday, January 16, 2017
School Vacation Days: Why can I not handle you?
Today was Martin Luther King Jr. Day, a day of reflection and remembrance.
.....and of course, a day off from school for my oldest three. Yippee!
I decided to approach today like I do any other school holiday and cram as much "fun" into an eight hour period as possible and hope for the best. Since the girls have been learning about MLK in school and have taken a recent interest in activism, I had planned an exciting day filled with civil rights related activities at an art museum, assembling donation bags for homeless women, making cards for friends, and finally visiting their dad at work for lunch before swim team. Afterward, I would return home to cook a tasty yet nutritious dinner for us to enjoy.
Guess how many of those things happened today???
ZERO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I would like to think that attempting to teach children the value of being charitable is worth a small fraction of actually following through with it, but I know darn well what my old Catholic school nuns would say about the "road to hell" in this situation. Good intentions aside, I think the kids are more likely to remember this as the day Mom lost her shit and yelled for 45 minutes about a misplaced girl scout cookie order form (it was at the bottom of the recycling bin) and a certain 4 year old's refusal to wear pants than any lesson about the importance of Dr. King's message and the value of helping those less fortunate.
Parenting is really hard. Some days you nail it, and you feel like a million bucks because your kids are growing up to be these awesome, funny, smart, interesting little people. Other days you fail miserably and your little boy acts more like Ryan Lochte in Rio than the charming little fellow his preschool teachers say he is, and your baby reminds you of a tantruming (albeit less orange) Donald Trump. Today I give myself a solid D+. The only thing that happened according to plan was that Lily sold a shitload of girl scout cookies to some kind coworkers and neighbors. Because damnit, I found the form!!
Why can't I handle school vacation days? Five years into having school age kids, I still head into them with a pit in my stomach and in full-on mom battle mode. Playdates to line up! Activities to schedule! Check that public skating calendar! In reality, it's a small miracle if I can motivate them to get out of their pajamas by 11 am without tears. All of my planning backfires in my face because a) if one kid gets a playdate, the other 2 cry and whine all day if they don't have one too, b) there is never enough time in one day for skating, swimming, movies, Ikea, neon rope climbing etc, and c) THERE IS NO SINGLE ACTIVITY THAT MORE THAN 1/4 OF THEM ENJOY!!!! So no matter what grandiose "fun" thing I plan, there will undoubtedly be 2-3 kids whining throughout, causing me to have to search for that bottle of jack daniels in the basement by 10 am.
So I give up. Yes, I still plan to make the blessing bags and the cards for friends, and teach my kids about the importance of activism and Dr. King's dream, but maybe not in all in one day. In fact, I think sometime within the next six months is a more appropriate goal. Next vacation day, I am going to let them stay in PJs on the couch for half the day watching you tube videos of creepy grown men unwrapping ninja turtle toys (WHY DO THEY LIKE THIS?!?) instead of dragging them out of the house for some kind of educational experience they don't want. Why? Because when I am stressed out, no one actually ends up having fun, and any teachable moments will be lost if all they remember is rushing around while I yell at them to find their socks.
So hopefully I will figure out how to approach the school vacation day in a healthier way sometime between now and February break, when they have (GASP) two whole days off in a row. Send prayers. In the meantime, I will hopefully be working on what I should have been doing today, which is my grad school application. I've run out of non-degree credits, so it looks like it's finally time to take that leap...
...or maybe just wait another year instead. I only have, you know, one more week to decide, write an essay and ask for letters of recommendation. Whatevz. NBD, as my classmates say.
But just when I get too stressed out thinking about that, I remember..TOMORROW'S A SCHOOL DAY!!! Cowabunga, as the ninja turtles would say!
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
Mom confession: I don't particularly care for the holidays.
GASP!!!! It's true.
But I like to think that actively trying to like the holiday season every year counts for something.
Every November I promise myself that this Thanksgiving and Christmas will be different. This is the year I will "relax" and "enjoy" the holidays and "slow down" and "focus on the important things". That I won't freak out about finding something to wear, or if the kids' dress shoes don't fit, or if the discussion at the table turns political, or if relatives judge my parenting/ kids' behavior, or if my nine year old wears sparkly sweatpants from Justice to church because she "doesn't have any clothes".
Nope, this is the year I will let it all go, and "savor the small moments". Or whatever people say.
The thing about being in the #fourkidsclub is that there are very few small moments to savor during the holiday season that don't involve breaking up fights, frantically rushing around everywhere, and deescalating public meltdowns before people notice. Forget matching outfits and combed hair for church on Christmas Eve, these days I'm lucky if all four of them don't have chocolate and/or boogers on their faces and are wearing both shoes AND clean socks. And if you are chronically 5 to 45 minutes late to everything like me, you can definitely look forward to standing in the back of the church holding your crying, wiggling toddler while your older kids beg for fruit snacks as your mind drifts to existential thoughts about whether you should be raising your children Catholic in the first place, and how pissed off you are at Pope Francis for being a sexist jerk.
I guess those 1950s housewives who coasted through the holidays on Xanax and cooking sherry had it right all along.
Thanksgiving is coming up on Thursday, and I admit this one is my least favorite, despite my fondness of green bean casserole with buttery french fried onions. The good part is, there's no church component to this one, however it is chock full of fun activities like making your neanderthal children with sit and behave at dinner in front of people who don't see them (or children in general) very often and have lots and lots of fun and useful opinions about everything. Especially parenting. And how to Make America Great Again. And Planned Parenthood. And of course, what we should do with the criminal immigrants! This Thanksgiving, a mere 2 weeks after the election that tore our nation apart, I will happily get up to chase my 2 year old at the first mention of the word "wall". Oh, and of course, lest we forget the unfortunate emergency c-section I had at 4 am on Thanksgiving two years ago. No green beans (or dignity)for me that year! Having to relive traumatic birth experiences is just the icing on an already a not-so-pleasant turkey flavored cake. Seriously, I will be thankful when it's all over.
As soon as you recover from Round 1, you are thrust head first into the frenzy of Christmas season. For the next 4 weeks, you will be forced to listen to horrible music like Christmas Shoes on every radio station, watch Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer 4,000 times, and if you're REALLY unlucky, wait in line at the mall for 3 hours so your kid can be too scared to sit on Santa's lap.
Then before you know it, it will be December 23rd and too late for 2-day shipping on Amazon and you have to do things like go to an actual physical store with your kids. SO YOU FREAK OUT AND START BUYING RANDOM CRAP! Buy it now and figure out who you'll give it to later. You will bribe your kids with pretzel bites and soda in exchange for 20 more minutes of quiet while you get those damn personalized ornaments you decided you need every year. You will run from store to store screaming things like "get back in the stroller!" and "I told you not to put your fingers near the escalator!". And then...then you become that mom.
Truthfully, a central theme of #fourkidsclub Christmas shopping involves overcompensating for favoritism and trying to create an equitable spread: all four gift piles must at least appear somewhat evendespite the fact that we all have a favorite child. So naturally, you lose tally of who got what, and overbuy like crazy.
After you return from the mall, broken down and defeated, you'll spend all Christmas eve night wrapping ten thousand presents for yourgreedy little brats who are already way too spoiled and entitled little munchkins hoping the next morning will go smoothly and everyone will be happy. And of course, they will be happy- Christmas morning might actually be one of my favorite things about being a parent. All kidding aside, the look on their faces when they find out Santa came is one that almost makes up for the bullshit we have to withstand during the rest of the season. This might be the last year we still have four believers, and for them, Christmas will damn well be magical. The pure joy our kids experience on Christmas morning allows us to overlook the fact that we will be tripping over toys and stepping on legos for weeks until we find a place to store them. From Dec.25th until around New Year's, our living room looks a little something like this:
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Sadly, the joy of Christmas morning is often short lived, because after a few hours of playing with toys and stuffing our faces with junk food, we are forced to mobilize and attend our various Christmas engagements. Family politics have prevented us from ever hosting at our home, but despite the inevitable cleaning frenzy, having people over here would be much better than tearing four kids away from their new toys and loading them into the car for a day rationed diplomatically between my family and my in-laws. It's never fun, and there's never enough time spent either place to make everyone happy.
Because of course, holidays are all about making other people happy. Duh!
When I was a kid, my family always hosted Christmas. There was the usual present-opening morning bliss, but then around 11, shit would get real and my parents made us take all our loot up to our rooms and started cooking and vacuuming like crazy before everyone arrived. The two sides of my family didn't hide their differences well, so they'd sit at their separate tables while my mom's in-laws teased her about her pre-cooked Stop n Shop turkey and environmentally irresponsible use of Styrofoam cups. I can now appreciate how much that must have sucked.
So yeah, THIS YEAR, I am going to try to enjoy the holidays, mostly since they are going to happen whether I like it or not. No, I am not turning to drugs. No, I am not going to carry around vodka in a hairspray bottle in my purse. No, I am not skipping the holidays altogether and running away to a tropical island. Well, maybe I will I my head...
I am not going to stress out before or during the holiday season this year. Instead, I am going to do something totally out of character and plan ahead.
HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA JK!!!
But seriously, even though it is the biggest parenting cliche around, when these kids grow up NO ONE WILL REMEMBER the tearful fight with the girl who refused to wear her velour dress to church, or the passive aggressive comment some judge-y relative made about my parenting. No one will care what I wear, or if the kids still have crap on their faces from a breakfast of Hershey's kisses and chocolate croissants. No one will remember that "casual" discussion about the merits of Trumps transition team OR CERTAINLY ONE CAN HOPE. That's why there is wine (or vodka Aqua Net), anyway.
So you guys enjoy the holiday season, ok? Remember, it's only as stressful, hectic, uncomfortable, degrading, and Trump-y as you let it be...and besides, it'll all be over in about a month! And by then we'll be grasping for any remaining shreds of holiday cheer, because it will be shitty January in Connecticut! Hooray! So have fun ignoring your budget and not being on Weight Watchers for one more month. And I will be sure to send you a postcard from my imaginary tropical island of avoidance and delusion, which MAY OR MAY NOT be better than cheap wine and benzos.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!
But I like to think that actively trying to like the holiday season every year counts for something.
Every November I promise myself that this Thanksgiving and Christmas will be different. This is the year I will "relax" and "enjoy" the holidays and "slow down" and "focus on the important things". That I won't freak out about finding something to wear, or if the kids' dress shoes don't fit, or if the discussion at the table turns political, or if relatives judge my parenting/ kids' behavior, or if my nine year old wears sparkly sweatpants from Justice to church because she "doesn't have any clothes".
Nope, this is the year I will let it all go, and "savor the small moments". Or whatever people say.
The thing about being in the #fourkidsclub is that there are very few small moments to savor during the holiday season that don't involve breaking up fights, frantically rushing around everywhere, and deescalating public meltdowns before people notice. Forget matching outfits and combed hair for church on Christmas Eve, these days I'm lucky if all four of them don't have chocolate and/or boogers on their faces and are wearing both shoes AND clean socks. And if you are chronically 5 to 45 minutes late to everything like me, you can definitely look forward to standing in the back of the church holding your crying, wiggling toddler while your older kids beg for fruit snacks as your mind drifts to existential thoughts about whether you should be raising your children Catholic in the first place, and how pissed off you are at Pope Francis for being a sexist jerk.
I guess those 1950s housewives who coasted through the holidays on Xanax and cooking sherry had it right all along.
Thanksgiving is coming up on Thursday, and I admit this one is my least favorite, despite my fondness of green bean casserole with buttery french fried onions. The good part is, there's no church component to this one, however it is chock full of fun activities like making your neanderthal children with sit and behave at dinner in front of people who don't see them (or children in general) very often and have lots and lots of fun and useful opinions about everything. Especially parenting. And how to Make America Great Again. And Planned Parenthood. And of course, what we should do with the criminal immigrants! This Thanksgiving, a mere 2 weeks after the election that tore our nation apart, I will happily get up to chase my 2 year old at the first mention of the word "wall". Oh, and of course, lest we forget the unfortunate emergency c-section I had at 4 am on Thanksgiving two years ago. No green beans (or dignity)for me that year! Having to relive traumatic birth experiences is just the icing on an already a not-so-pleasant turkey flavored cake. Seriously, I will be thankful when it's all over.
As soon as you recover from Round 1, you are thrust head first into the frenzy of Christmas season. For the next 4 weeks, you will be forced to listen to horrible music like Christmas Shoes on every radio station, watch Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer 4,000 times, and if you're REALLY unlucky, wait in line at the mall for 3 hours so your kid can be too scared to sit on Santa's lap.
Then before you know it, it will be December 23rd and too late for 2-day shipping on Amazon and you have to do things like go to an actual physical store with your kids. SO YOU FREAK OUT AND START BUYING RANDOM CRAP! Buy it now and figure out who you'll give it to later. You will bribe your kids with pretzel bites and soda in exchange for 20 more minutes of quiet while you get those damn personalized ornaments you decided you need every year. You will run from store to store screaming things like "get back in the stroller!" and "I told you not to put your fingers near the escalator!". And then...then you become that mom.
Truthfully, a central theme of #fourkidsclub Christmas shopping involves overcompensating for favoritism and trying to create an equitable spread: all four gift piles must at least appear somewhat even
After you return from the mall, broken down and defeated, you'll spend all Christmas eve night wrapping ten thousand presents for your
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| wait-- did a bomb just go off? |
Sadly, the joy of Christmas morning is often short lived, because after a few hours of playing with toys and stuffing our faces with junk food, we are forced to mobilize and attend our various Christmas engagements. Family politics have prevented us from ever hosting at our home, but despite the inevitable cleaning frenzy, having people over here would be much better than tearing four kids away from their new toys and loading them into the car for a day rationed diplomatically between my family and my in-laws. It's never fun, and there's never enough time spent either place to make everyone happy.
Because of course, holidays are all about making other people happy. Duh!
When I was a kid, my family always hosted Christmas. There was the usual present-opening morning bliss, but then around 11, shit would get real and my parents made us take all our loot up to our rooms and started cooking and vacuuming like crazy before everyone arrived. The two sides of my family didn't hide their differences well, so they'd sit at their separate tables while my mom's in-laws teased her about her pre-cooked Stop n Shop turkey and environmentally irresponsible use of Styrofoam cups. I can now appreciate how much that must have sucked.
So yeah, THIS YEAR, I am going to try to enjoy the holidays, mostly since they are going to happen whether I like it or not. No, I am not turning to drugs. No, I am not going to carry around vodka in a hairspray bottle in my purse. No, I am not skipping the holidays altogether and running away to a tropical island. Well, maybe I will I my head...
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| Here I am NOT having a conversation about politics. |
I am not going to stress out before or during the holiday season this year. Instead, I am going to do something totally out of character and plan ahead.
HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA JK!!!
But seriously, even though it is the biggest parenting cliche around, when these kids grow up NO ONE WILL REMEMBER the tearful fight with the girl who refused to wear her velour dress to church, or the passive aggressive comment some judge-y relative made about my parenting. No one will care what I wear, or if the kids still have crap on their faces from a breakfast of Hershey's kisses and chocolate croissants. No one will remember that "casual" discussion about the merits of Trumps transition team OR CERTAINLY ONE CAN HOPE. That's why there is wine (or vodka Aqua Net), anyway.
So you guys enjoy the holiday season, ok? Remember, it's only as stressful, hectic, uncomfortable, degrading, and Trump-y as you let it be...and besides, it'll all be over in about a month! And by then we'll be grasping for any remaining shreds of holiday cheer, because it will be shitty January in Connecticut! Hooray! So have fun ignoring your budget and not being on Weight Watchers for one more month. And I will be sure to send you a postcard from my imaginary tropical island of avoidance and delusion, which MAY OR MAY NOT be better than cheap wine and benzos.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!
Thursday, September 15, 2016
Wake me up when September (and my baby fever) ends.
You'll miss this when they're grown.
I turned around to half-acknowledge the remark, almost spilling my French press as I flashed the most phony smile I could muster in the direction of the 50-something woman standing behind me.
I was having coffee with a friend on the patio of my favorite shop, trying to carry on a conversation as my wild towheaded toddler made continuous attempts to run into the parking lot, and my preschooler whined in the chair next to me after accidentally closing the You Tube app on my phone. You know, a typical September morning in the #fourkidsclub.
Yeaaahh, I know. Haha. Kids are pretty great. Have a good day! I mumbled, through clenched teeth.
Every day it seems I receive some variation of this comment.
"Enjoy every minute"
"They grow so fast. Blink and you'll miss it"
"The days are long but the years are short" (my personal fave)
I know people generally mean well, but these types of cliche remarks are annoying and frankly a little smug. I know I am CRAZY to occasionally drag my kids places that do not offer chicken nuggets, petting zoos and inflatable bouncy castles. However, I selfishly insist on having a life outside of momhood sometimes. On most weekdays, my two boys are my reluctant companions, having to suffer through errands and my boring social life while their sisters are at school.
At that particular moment outside Cafe Sofia, I couldn't fathom the possibility of someday "missing this". I am a self-professed hater of the toddler years, who admits openly to not truly enjoying my kids' company until after they are three. The thought of all four kids being in school full time seems mind-blowingly glorious right now. Until that day comes, all I want is the occasional walk or coffee date with my friends (most of whom don't have preschoolers anymore and probably take pity on me) for an hour so I can feel like a human being again. Is that too much to ask?
Kind of, yeah.
September is the busiest month on the calendar, and this year we dove in head first. After the longest, most intense, action-packed and memorable #fourkidsclub summer in the books, I shipped the oldest two off to school within 18 hours of returning from vacation, and Brendan started pre K the next day. With a new school year also comes the mandatory frenzy of extracurriculars; soccer, swimming, piano, dance, music together and library class. As hectic as back-to-school time can be, getting a break after nearly 3 months of 24/7 Mommy Camp is downright wonderful.
September can also be kind of lonely, though. I mean,without even mentioning the fact that my best friend who I saw almost every day for 8 years moved to freaking Europe this summer, I have had more than a few "Hey there Lonely Girl" moments over the last few weeks. I often find myself flying solo at the playground or the library with my boys during the day, something I didn't experience when they girls were young because I was always involved in various mom-themed activities. Nowadays, the activities I am involved in do NOT directly involve my kids, and I prefer it that way.
I've been at this stay at home mom game for almost ten years now. In the nine and a half years since I had Fiona, I have seen trends and friends come and go, and have had to deal with what feels like every challenge a parent of young children can possibly face. In that time, the entire landscape has changed, not only in parenting trends but more significantly in my personal life. I have gone back to school. I am starting to look forward instead of back down that diaper aisle at Target. Many times I feel isolated and OLD staying home with my active 1 year old, when my eldest is an articulate and sassy "tween" that almost basically (but not quite) needs to go bra shopping.
Despite my stay-at-home-mom angst, thoughts of having a fifth child have started to creep in once more. Why not, right? I already have mountains of newborn clothes in pink, blue, and every other color of the rainbow. I have a brand new eight passenger minivan. My basement is a veritable Goodwill Store stocked with every toy, stroller, carrier and accessory needed for an army of children under ten. Plus, I am feeling kind of emotional after the recent acquisition of a "big boy bed" by my 22 month old, who moved into his brother's room last week. The crib is gone and the old nursery is empty (well, except for the graveyard of age-inappropriate Fisher Price infant toys that remain scattered on the floor). Why am I keeping all this crap--that I constantly trip over and claim to hate-- in my house unless my subconscious is trying to tell me something?
Our baby is almost 2. After each of the other kids, I have consistently gotten pregnant again between 19-23 months. I am not currently pregnant. This is uncharted territory!
Some days I want to go down to the basement and break out all the stretchy pants and nursing tank tops again. Part of me really wants to want to have a fifth baby, as baffling as that is. Those who are closest to me know how tough my fourth pregnancy and birth was, physically and emotionally. The first weeks with my son were overwhelming, and I feel guilty about not enjoying that squishy newborn as much as I should have. Having a fourth baby rocked my world and threw me out of balance without warning. Some days I was fine, but other days I felt like I was swimming in deep scary water, afraid that if I looked below the surface, I would be pulled down into darkness. In my mind, starting fresh with a new baby would be like pressing the "reset" button, and I can transition out of my childbearing years with a final, positive experience.
If I were to get pregnant again, I told myself, I would do it "right" this time. I'd buy the latest state of the art baby gear and things I couldn't afford with the older kids (except a pacifier sterilizer and a wipe warmer, because I am still not a tool). I would actually design a nursery and paint a mural on the wall, even though this is something I frequently make fun of Millennials for doing. Everything would be monogrammed. Professional pictures would be taken and posted all over the internet ad nauseam. Baby book would be updated regularly, which I haven't done for any of my kids so far (gasp!).
But every time I let my mind go to that place, another part of me is fighting the urge to procreate with every fiber of my being. Over the last year, I have been slowly working on my MSW, and trying to dust off the shreds of what were once my professional ambitions. I've been doing more non-PTO volunteer work, and making connections with new people. I am starting to envision what my post-childbearing life will eventually look like. Out of a chrysalis of Mom jeans and ill-fitting black T-shirts, someday I will emerge again. And at 33, I am smarter, more mature, and have a clearer picture of the person I want to be than I did when I was 21 and still part of the working world.
So maybe I'll just listen to my friends who were lovingly chanting "IUD" at me during book club last week. Maybe I should listen to the little voice inside that is telling me that i am so done, so ready to move forward with my life. Listen to the part of me that has a visceral reaction when I recall how much I hate being pregnant. Yes, having babies is familiar and comfortable for me, but it's also a cop-out. I know myself well enough to realize that running away is my first instinct when faced with something difficult. It is time to get over the fear of moving past the stay at home mom phase and cross the bridge to the other side.
And even though I wanted to punch that well-meaning lady in Cafe Sofia the other day, the truth is that I know she is right. I WILL miss these days, as much as I am sick of them now. As much as I am fed up with parenting toddlers, and stressed out, and lonely, I know I will miss the matchbox cars in my purse, my trusty double jogger, and those tiny little newborn socks. I know I am not ready to throw all that stuff away either, and I decided that's okay for now. I also know, despite my constant denial of this fact, that I will be sad and maybe even cry when my youngest goes off to preschool next Fall.
But having that first kid-free coffee date after I drop him off? Well, I am most certainly looking forward to that.
I turned around to half-acknowledge the remark, almost spilling my French press as I flashed the most phony smile I could muster in the direction of the 50-something woman standing behind me.
I was having coffee with a friend on the patio of my favorite shop, trying to carry on a conversation as my wild towheaded toddler made continuous attempts to run into the parking lot, and my preschooler whined in the chair next to me after accidentally closing the You Tube app on my phone. You know, a typical September morning in the #fourkidsclub.
Yeaaahh, I know. Haha. Kids are pretty great. Have a good day! I mumbled, through clenched teeth.
Every day it seems I receive some variation of this comment.
"Enjoy every minute"
"They grow so fast. Blink and you'll miss it"
"The days are long but the years are short" (my personal fave)
I know people generally mean well, but these types of cliche remarks are annoying and frankly a little smug. I know I am CRAZY to occasionally drag my kids places that do not offer chicken nuggets, petting zoos and inflatable bouncy castles. However, I selfishly insist on having a life outside of momhood sometimes. On most weekdays, my two boys are my reluctant companions, having to suffer through errands and my boring social life while their sisters are at school.
At that particular moment outside Cafe Sofia, I couldn't fathom the possibility of someday "missing this". I am a self-professed hater of the toddler years, who admits openly to not truly enjoying my kids' company until after they are three. The thought of all four kids being in school full time seems mind-blowingly glorious right now. Until that day comes, all I want is the occasional walk or coffee date with my friends (most of whom don't have preschoolers anymore and probably take pity on me) for an hour so I can feel like a human being again. Is that too much to ask?
Kind of, yeah.
September is the busiest month on the calendar, and this year we dove in head first. After the longest, most intense, action-packed and memorable #fourkidsclub summer in the books, I shipped the oldest two off to school within 18 hours of returning from vacation, and Brendan started pre K the next day. With a new school year also comes the mandatory frenzy of extracurriculars; soccer, swimming, piano, dance, music together and library class. As hectic as back-to-school time can be, getting a break after nearly 3 months of 24/7 Mommy Camp is downright wonderful.
September can also be kind of lonely, though. I mean,
I've been at this stay at home mom game for almost ten years now. In the nine and a half years since I had Fiona, I have seen trends and friends come and go, and have had to deal with what feels like every challenge a parent of young children can possibly face. In that time, the entire landscape has changed, not only in parenting trends but more significantly in my personal life. I have gone back to school. I am starting to look forward instead of back down that diaper aisle at Target. Many times I feel isolated and OLD staying home with my active 1 year old, when my eldest is an articulate and sassy "tween" that almost basically (but not quite) needs to go bra shopping.
Despite my stay-at-home-mom angst, thoughts of having a fifth child have started to creep in once more. Why not, right? I already have mountains of newborn clothes in pink, blue, and every other color of the rainbow. I have a brand new eight passenger minivan. My basement is a veritable Goodwill Store stocked with every toy, stroller, carrier and accessory needed for an army of children under ten. Plus, I am feeling kind of emotional after the recent acquisition of a "big boy bed" by my 22 month old, who moved into his brother's room last week. The crib is gone and the old nursery is empty (well, except for the graveyard of age-inappropriate Fisher Price infant toys that remain scattered on the floor). Why am I keeping all this crap--that I constantly trip over and claim to hate-- in my house unless my subconscious is trying to tell me something?
Our baby is almost 2. After each of the other kids, I have consistently gotten pregnant again between 19-23 months. I am not currently pregnant. This is uncharted territory!
Some days I want to go down to the basement and break out all the stretchy pants and nursing tank tops again. Part of me really wants to want to have a fifth baby, as baffling as that is. Those who are closest to me know how tough my fourth pregnancy and birth was, physically and emotionally. The first weeks with my son were overwhelming, and I feel guilty about not enjoying that squishy newborn as much as I should have. Having a fourth baby rocked my world and threw me out of balance without warning. Some days I was fine, but other days I felt like I was swimming in deep scary water, afraid that if I looked below the surface, I would be pulled down into darkness. In my mind, starting fresh with a new baby would be like pressing the "reset" button, and I can transition out of my childbearing years with a final, positive experience.
If I were to get pregnant again, I told myself, I would do it "right" this time. I'd buy the latest state of the art baby gear and things I couldn't afford with the older kids (except a pacifier sterilizer and a wipe warmer, because I am still not a tool). I would actually design a nursery and paint a mural on the wall, even though this is something I frequently make fun of Millennials for doing. Everything would be monogrammed. Professional pictures would be taken and posted all over the internet ad nauseam. Baby book would be updated regularly, which I haven't done for any of my kids so far (gasp!).
But every time I let my mind go to that place, another part of me is fighting the urge to procreate with every fiber of my being. Over the last year, I have been slowly working on my MSW, and trying to dust off the shreds of what were once my professional ambitions. I've been doing more non-PTO volunteer work, and making connections with new people. I am starting to envision what my post-childbearing life will eventually look like. Out of a chrysalis of Mom jeans and ill-fitting black T-shirts, someday I will emerge again. And at 33, I am smarter, more mature, and have a clearer picture of the person I want to be than I did when I was 21 and still part of the working world.
So maybe I'll just listen to my friends who were lovingly chanting "IUD" at me during book club last week. Maybe I should listen to the little voice inside that is telling me that i am so done, so ready to move forward with my life. Listen to the part of me that has a visceral reaction when I recall how much I hate being pregnant. Yes, having babies is familiar and comfortable for me, but it's also a cop-out. I know myself well enough to realize that running away is my first instinct when faced with something difficult. It is time to get over the fear of moving past the stay at home mom phase and cross the bridge to the other side.
And even though I wanted to punch that well-meaning lady in Cafe Sofia the other day, the truth is that I know she is right. I WILL miss these days, as much as I am sick of them now. As much as I am fed up with parenting toddlers, and stressed out, and lonely, I know I will miss the matchbox cars in my purse, my trusty double jogger, and those tiny little newborn socks. I know I am not ready to throw all that stuff away either, and I decided that's okay for now. I also know, despite my constant denial of this fact, that I will be sad and maybe even cry when my youngest goes off to preschool next Fall.
But having that first kid-free coffee date after I drop him off? Well, I am most certainly looking forward to that.
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Four Kids Summer Club
Dear friends, we've made it halfway through summer vacation!
Seven weeks in, my #fourkidsclub has entered the happy period of summer equilibrium. After a few rough patches at the start, we've hit our stride once again with four kids coexisting all day under one roof. I can relax with my phone a book and hang back on the sidelines while my kids play games, and do other various kid things. Only occasionally do I have to break up a punching or screaming match, or save a certain toddler from falling off a playscape.
I daresay that we are in the sweet spot over here in the Suburbs, and have made it for (most of) the last month and a half with relatively minimal whining, enthusiasm for summer activities and nary a mention of QUEST (though back to school placement letter hysteria is tightening it's grip this week). I have not yet begun to shop for pencils, or backpacks with those bug-eyed animal keychains, and Lord knows I have not set foot in Justice in nearly four months.
SUMMER VACATION!!!
I'm guessing that in general, members of the #fourkidsclub either love it or hate it. Sure, it could be daunting to manage a houseful of kids who have been involved in school and activities for so long that they have forgotten how to handle free, unstructured time. I will admit, the first week or two can be tough, while everyone is re-learning how to interact with each other in a civil way. And if they can't, you know, there's camp. I suppose for a mom who loves organization and schedules and meal planning and order, summer might more than a tad bit stressful. BUT I AM NOT THAT MOM. I love summer. Here's a list of reasons why:
1. Scheduling / routine goes to hell
Have I mentioned how I feel about making school lunches? This year, my two school age kids have decided the school cafeteria made the pizza crust and pasta too "brown" (whole grain), so naturally they won't be eating it anymore. My 9 year old likes salad bar day, (read: black olives, croutons and ranch dressing day), but other than that I have to pack 3 lunches that consist of more than pop tarts almost every day. Not during the summer! The kids are more than welcome to scrounge the pantry for their own meals, even if all of them consist of cereal and cheez its. I know for a fact that Fiona learned how to chop vegetables and cook quiche and johnny cakes at Colonial camp, so there are zero excuses. Or they can just eat lunchables, whatever. No bento box pinterest lunches allowed in summertime.
Summer is also the time where bedtimes are well...negotiable. Unless there is camp in the AM, we have been kind of lax with this one. Drive In movies are fun- and bonus- your kids are already asleep in the car by the time you get home. I actually have time to read to my kids during summer vacation. The other night as I put my girls to bed, Fiona asked me to explain what Black Lives Matter meant, so of course I went to town with that one (I realize her strategy, but I honestly don't care). Many nights, we stay at the pool until 8 then eat Dairy Queen., so bedtime gets pushed out until 10...ish. And every night ends with Joe and I on the couch, me falling asleep to Friday Night Lights, him on the computer doing work. Ah, summer romance.
And I didn't even kid myself and buy those summer Common Core workbooks for my kids this year. Not even going to pretend that's happening.
2. Housework goes to hell
There's nothing like a picnic in the park! Every night...with paper plates! And while I admit, the pounds have been piling up, there is NO pile of dishes in my sink right now. As for laundry, since we are poolrats, the kids haven't worn real clothes or underwear since sometime in June. Crumpled up clothes found on the bottom of the beach bag are totally acceptable to wear for a second day. And the one laundry basket that's been hanging out in the upstairs hallway since May? That is going to have to wait until September, and I'm totally okay with that.
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| you know, the one with clothes from all four seasons |
In the summer, it's easy to meet friends at the pool or the park, so I don't have to constantly be worried about the condition of my house. Which is great, because the best part of summer is:
3. Summer friends
Summer friends are the best friends in the world. You know, the kind you see at the pool every day, or the kind you never see during the school year but can finally make time for during July and August. Or especially the kind that take the Chinatown bus for five hours to meet up in NYC for the day. Those friends are the best.
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| Brooklyn on a Monday! Whaaat!?!? |
Summer is also a great time to "detox" from the unpleasant social situations you can't avoid during the school year. You can weed out your kids' annoying playmates that you can't stand. Summer is a magical time where we hand-pick our companions, and bid all the mombots, sanctimommies, and jerky bratty kids adieu until September.
In summer, you have the freedom to prioritize the friends and playmates who are worth spending time with. Also, ignoring birthday party E-vites because your kids aren't in touch with their school friends is a big plus this time of year.
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| later, bitches. |
In summer, you have the freedom to prioritize the friends and playmates who are worth spending time with. Also, ignoring birthday party E-vites because your kids aren't in touch with their school friends is a big plus this time of year.
4. Personal hygiene goes to hell
During the school year I have to wash and detangle my girls hair, like, every day. In the summer, I torture Lily with the brush and bottle of detangler and threaten her with a buzz cut only ONCE a week on average.
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| Lily's weekly braid. This particular one is on day 3. |
Showering has become a weekly event for my kids, because I can't think of a bigger waste of time and energy, given that they are submerged in a swimming pool 2-3 times a day. Plus, chlorine kills all the germs! That's a win-win.
5. Summer is the season that half finished home renovation projects almost get completed
This summer we are "doing" our kitchen and downstairs bathroom. God bless my sweet husband, who has gone Home-Depot crazy and taken on this project himself, after a handful of high-ish quotes from contractors. Granted, while I still have the contractors saved in my phone on speed dial (I'm so 90s), I'm happy to be saving some money, so we can over-spend it in other ways.
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| goodbye, horrid blue tile floor and hideous faux brick backsplash. |
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| ahhh, so unifying and calming |
BTW: I have just discovered the magical paint color that is Revere Pewter. Is it beige? Is it grey? How is it so calming? Thank you, Benjamin Moore. You sure are great at marketing, because suddenly I want to Revere Pewter everything.
even my baby..
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| Mmm...greige |
I hope everyone out there is having an awesome LONG and relaxing summer! This month we are packing up the kids and heading to to beach (cue the whining and OCD foot washing). I love the beach, and my little darlings will surely learn to love it too! Or just sit inside the house and watch cable tv all day. Whichever.
See y'all at Justice on September 1st! ;-)
xo kc
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